NB.. I woke up at three A.M. this morning with my mind swirling and my heart pounding. I was awake for a couple of hours, thinking and working through my angst. I feel better, so I thought I would share for anyone who has ever been there or who is there now. 💞
There is nothing worse than feeling trapped in a situation that causes overwhelming fear, grief, anger, resentment, and anxiety. I know because many years ago that was my reality.
Bizarrely, I thought that I was coping. I thought that despite everything that was wrong with my life, and the way that I was reacting to it, I was relatively functional. I had to be firing on all, or at least most of, my cylinders. I was a wife, a mother, a full-time homemaker, a responsible reliable employee. I was good! Except that I wasn’t – and the stress of doing it all in the confines of a volatile, dysfunctional marriage was too much for too long.
One day I reached my breaking point. I hit my knees, looked up to the heavens, and said “I can’t do this anymore”.
The heavens did not open up and make all of my problems go away. My life did not instantly change. But, I did. (And for that I do give total credit to the heavens above).
It was like a huge weight was lifted off of me. I was determined, fearless, confident, pro-active, and happy. As my state of mind changed, my life changed. It wasn’t anyone’s idea of easy, but somehow it was easy for me. I left my husband, created a new and peaceful home for my family, built a career and worked countless hours to support us. I didn’t have time for doubts or fears or grief to set in. As time went on, my life got better and easier. I met and married a good man. 💞
My life did not become the proverbial rose garden. There have been challenges along the way. Lots of challenges!
But, way back from that day that I hit rock bottom, I began to learn how important the right mindset was to living a good life.
Over the years, I have learned…
- That once I hit ‘rock bottom’ and climbed back up, I never fell that far again. The climb gets easier, taking me higher every time – stronger, happier, and calmer.
- That coping mechanisms are endless. By searching them out, I have discovered self-help books, social media accounts, podcasts, and You Tube channels that have been invaluable in creating the life I wanted and always knew I deserved.
- The importance of making my physical, mental, and emotional health and well being my top priority.
- That I cannot control everything and everybody in my life – and they cannot control me. The more I focus on improving my mental, physical, and emotional well-being, the less judgemental and stressed I am by outside influences.
- That the healthier I get – mentally, physically, and emotionally – the more I am drawn to like minded people and the more they are drawn to me. 😁
- That all of the power in MY life is within ME. As my favourite Rumi quote goes (with a bit of tweaking) …”It’s my road, and mine alone, others may walk it with me, but no one can walk it for me.”
Have yourself a good day. You deserve it!