Chronic Illness

I have gone from having asthma and occasional bouts of bronchitis and pneumonia to having full-blown chronic issues with my lungs.  I have joined the millions who have COPD and those who have bronchiectasis  (there may be millions of us as well – we just do not talk about it because we cannot pronounce it?).

Having chronic lung issues is miserable – as is having any chronic issue no doubt.Β  One is always ‘sick’ to some degree but there is no cure and no serious relief. Too soon, you get sick and tired of being sick and tired. πŸ₯Ί

The real kick in the pants is that no health issue, chronic or otherwise, can just stay in one body part.  Other body parts have to kick things up in a show of solidarity with the sickly part of you. With my lung issues, the sympathizer has been my sinuses.  Seriously – I struggle to breathe and my nose is permanently, continuously plugged. 🀦

Blocked sinuses do not sound so bad, but they are.   You resort to mouth breathing – your throat is always dry, you can’t eat without choking, and you get hiccups (WAY too often 😳).  You cannot sleep with blocked sinuses because you wake up gasping for air every time you close your mouth.   And finally, the pressure in your sinuses builds up to the point where your eyes, ears and brain jump in with their own sympathy pains.  🀬

Modern science has provided us with many means to deal with blocked sinuses.  There are a variety of vaporizers on the market (all of which annoy and agitate my asthma).  There are numerous OTC nasal sprays (which are basically useless).  There are prescription nasal sprays which are extremely effective (and cause massive nosebleeds 😐).   Then there is my personal favourite – the Neti Pot.   Pouring warm, treated water through ones sinuses is quite effective and brings about serious relief.  It is also messy, awkward and seriously undignified.  But what the hell – it works. πŸ₯³

My new best friend🌟
Kat is still my best friend – but she is no Neti Pot. πŸ™‚

Have a great day and stay safe (and healthy). Cannot stress the healthy part enough! πŸ’ž

194 More Days

194 Days until I am retired! I cannot wait for the freedom to get up and know I am free to plan my day around the weather and my personal whims 😊

I really thought that I would face retirement with some reluctance. The truth is, I am READY! I have enjoyed my career, especially my current position, but these last two years have been so frustrating and stressful an the past couple of weeks have brought so much miserable winter weather. I am just so ready to start this new chapter of my life. πŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒ

All About Me

Before I decide how best I can live my retirement, I think it is a good time to review who I am and what I really want to do with my life going forward.

It would be easy enough to review my history, list my relationships and explain what I have done career wise but that doesn’t really speak to who I am or where I go from here. I feel I need to dig deeper than that.

So who am I? I am someone who is STRONG – not physically or mentally or even emotionally. I am strong on a deeper level. I have been through hell, have found the strength to do what I had to do, and I have started over stronger, wiser and better for the experience. I am someone who is INTELLIGENT -in a common sense kind of way. I have always been able to contribute by seeing what needs to be done, by finding a way to do it and by acting accordingly. I am definitely intelligent enough to learn from others and to learn from my own mistakes. I am KIND, not in a patronizing or enabling way but kind enough to offer a hand up, or compassion or support as the case may be. For the most part, I have been the caregiver as opposed to the one in need of care and I am definitely more comfortable being in the role of caregiver.

So generally speaking, I believe I am strong enough and have enough interests to anticipate an enjoyable retirement, however I will need to find ways to keep giving. That is the way I was raised – to believe that we were here to contribute more than we took away from any situation. That will, no doubt, always be a part of me.