Mental Retirement

When I contemplated retirement, I focussed on the physical and spiritual opportunities that would become available.  Despite the fact that my career had always been mentally challenging, the mental aspect of retirement was not a consideration for me.

Since I retired at the end of March, I have been sidetracked by health issues.  I have struggled to tackle any of the physical projects that I had anticipated.   This summer, my efforts to improve my health centered around resting, being outdoors in the fresh air and sunshine, and walking through and around our neighbourhood parks.    The time in nature gave me ample opportunity to focus on my spiritual well-being. 

Strangely, even once I retired, I did not actively pursue or even consider my mental well-being.   I was perfectly happy just releasing all of the mental clutter that I had accumulated over the previous decades.     

To be honest, I was never on the greatest terms with my mind.  My conscious mind was generally a battleground of deadlines and details, numbers and technology,  co-workers and clients,  and fear of failure – or in the case of winter driving – fear of possible injury or death.    My off work hours focussed on worrying about family, household responsibilities,  and personal finances.  

My unconscious mind was another matter.   I knew in my heart that the subconscious mind was a phenomenal source of power.  If I could convince my subconscious mind that I wanted to radically change my life in one way or another, I knew it would be as good as done.   Alas, my subconscious mind seemed to be all but unreachable at the best of times.

Eight months into retirement, I have come to make an astonishing discovery.  While I have been focussing on my physical and spiritual well-being, my mental well-being has increased to an all-time high.

As I walked, rested, and relaxed, the battlefield that was my conscious mind has cleared.  It is not a blank slate.  It is this functional space where I have become aware of  my surroundings and notice things like birds and squirrels, clouds and trees.   These things that I notice trigger a curiousity and interest that sends me searching for more in-depth knowledge of the world that surrounds me.  At home, household chores like planning and preparing  meals are no longer done on auto-pilot.  I actually source out nutritional values, unfamiliar  ingredients and new recipes.  Now, when I pick up my cellphone, rather than wasting time on mind-numbing games, I find myself sourcing out interesting books to read or intellectually stimulating subjects to explore.

Recently, in an attempt to ease my breathing issues, I have been sourcing out meditations to aid in deep relaxation.    I have tried a number of different videos on You Tube, from singing bowls to spirit animals, to various guided meditations, and more.   Amazingly enough, I have found myself  getting more and more in touch with my subconscious mind.   (Apparently, it was always there and it was not being deliberately obtuse.   It was just buried under all of the clutter of my conscious mind.)  Reaching my subconscious mind has given me so much depth that I have been lacking in my life.  It has been an incredible experience.

I am so excited and grateful for this retirement time of my life.    For the first time ever I have this opportunity to focus on strengthening and balancing my physical, mental, and spiritual well-being.  The more I do so, the more of myself I have to share with others – more joy, more excitement, more compassion, more kindness, more love, more beauty, more of everything that truly matters in life.

The longer I am retired, the more I realize – Retirement is such an enchanting time in a person’s life. 🌟

Taking Retirement to a New Level

My concept of retirement continues to evolve…. When I was still working, I thought of retirement as the release from responsibility, doing always for others, and putting up with the constant BS and pressure that is the working world. As retirement came closer, I saw it as an opportunity to live life on my terms – and I was determined to keep it busy and fulfilling. After I retired, I gradually mellowed out and decided that retirement was an opportunity to enjoy and appreciate the opportunity to just ‘be’ – truly living my life each day on my own terms. For the past few weeks, with health problems becoming more and more of an issue despite my best efforts, I was floundering a bit – not sure where retirement was taking me.

Now, I am back on track and feel that I have, for probably the first time in my life, found my true calling. Regardless of all else happening in my life, going forward I am totally committed to channeling peace and hope and love and beauty. I think that is what the world needs right now that it is the best way that I can make the most of my retirement.

This mission of mine takes little effort. I can do it regardless of how I am feeling or what I am doing. I can do it when I am walking, cooking, cleaning, reading, shopping, driving, meditating – anything! It is that easy. It takes nothing out of me, I feel good doing it and I feel I am doing something truly worthwhile with my life.

I have never understood why some people deliberately channel so much hate, anger, greed and fear into the world. That takes so much effort and it makes the world so ugly and miserable. I cannot imagine what it does to people who do it on a regular basis.

So, yes that is my plan for retirement going forward – peace, hope, love, and beauty.

Have a great day!

Windy Wednesday

It’s a chilly day in paradise today.

Kat and I took our usual walk this morning.  The cold wind was doing a good job of blowing the leaves off of the trees.
Dominic arrived to spend a few hours with Kat and I.    After lunch, we will venture out to the playhouse for some Play-Doh creativity.
I will try to finish my latest read later this afternoon.  This is a great book.  I just finished a chapter on the importance of walking for one’s mental and emotional health.   I could not agree more.

Time to put together some lunch for Dom.  I made an Apple Crisp yesterday, so at least desert is ready.

Dan was serving desert last night 🙄. I swear I peeled lots of apples for this. Either they really cooked down or I tossed Kat way more slices than I thought I had. 🤦

Keep safe – and warm!

Daily Routine

Another day of not accomplishing a whole lot.  I had my coffee, read my news, walked my dog, did dishes (where do they keep coming from?), did some housecleaning, fed the squirrels and birds, fed Kat (twice), killed fourteen bugs and did a bit of yardwork.    And, it is time to make supper. Where does my time go?

When I worked, I thought that the best thing about retirement would be having time to complete the ‘bigger’ home projects.  Now I feel like I am living the sequel to “Groundhog Day”.

Is this what retirement is supposed to be like?  I really thought it would be more productive. I used to be productive when I worked. There was always more work than hours in a day, but I always got it done!

I am thinking I should start making a to do list again every morning to get back on track. Or maybe that would be contrary to what retirement is meant to be?

Life in the retirement lane👵

Learning to Retire

Before I retired, I was determined not to waste the best years of my life by sitting in front of a television, letting my life slip away…    I have been retired for three months now.

During my first few weeks of my retirement, I cleaned and polished every nook and cranny of our house.  Then I started to cook and bake, which of course messed up the house, so I had to clean and polish all the more. 🤷

Neat and tidy 😉

I could see this becoming a losing battle, so I backed off on the cooking and started to focus on my dog.  I was walking her, bathing her and grooming her.   And there was dog hair and wet dog smell everywhere!  Which meant more house cleaning and polishing.  🙄

My dog, Kat

Finally spring arrived and I was able to get out in the yard – with my dog!   I tidied up the yard, planted plants, and painted flower beds.  Kat was at my side, in the house, back out, back in.  There was now pine needles, sand, leaves and muddy pawprints throughout the house.   I cleaned up the house.  Polish – not so much😒

Our garden area 🌿

With spring planting behind us, I am looking at doing a couple of small renovation projects and getting back into a few hobbies I once enjoyed.   I have a sneaking suspicion that renovations and hobbies are going to circle right back to more housecleaning. 😟

Maybe  I should just rethink my original retirement plan, curl up on the couch with my dog and check out some daytime television.  😉

That’s NOT happening!

Wishing everyone, retired or not, a great day🌞

Another Day In The Life Of..

Dan is back on shift today. Kat and I bounced to life at 5:30 a. m. Granted, one of us had more life than the other at that ungodly hour. I fed Kat, had my morning infusion of coffee and spent some time reading the news and checking out Facebook. Neither brightened my day.

I had a hearty brunch at 9:00. That perked me up. I went outside and started painting planters. I am down two with thirty six to go!

I stopped for a bit of a break and my brat of a granddaughter snuck in and scared the life out of me.

Genie sporting her new glasses.

The grocery stores are finally settling down here. I am so glad that Genie is finally getting a few days off. She needs it and she so deserves it!

Genie brought me a couple of little elephants to join the herd.

Have a nice day🌞

Another Win🤗

Kat

Back in early November, I broke out in a case of shingles. I went to the doctor within a couple of days and he prescribed some very effective medication. My shingles were only bad for one week. For that week, they were pretty bad. I spent a lot of time in bed. When Dan was at work, I would get myself up to feed Kat and then lay down on the couch. Kat would eat, wander around for a while and then sit in front of me with a disgruntled look on her face. At seven thirty, she would run to the back porch to bark. I would haul myself up (in case she really needed to go out) and drag myself to the door to let her out.

When I got to the door, Kat would sit on her haunches and look at me as if to say “It is time for you to go – get out already!” I do not know what she would typically do when I went to work, but she obviously wanted me to go so she could do it.

This week, I officially retired. I have been home since the end of March so I have been wearing Kat down. She realizes that life has changed and she is making the best of it. She spends most of her day following me around waiting for treats, napping, or running around the yard barking at every dog, cat, or leaf that goes by. Later in the afternoon she will sit down by her leash and bark to let me know it is time for her walk.

Kat has stopped trying to get rid of me every morning. That is one more win for me. Now, I just hope to one day convince her that we no longer have to get up by six a.m.

Officially Retired🥂

In the ever changing story of my life, I am officially retired as of today!  Due to ongoing health issues and my boss’s concern that I may not be able as dependable as he would need me to be for the next few weeks, we have come to the mutual conclusion that I should retire now and be done with it.   Yay!

I have been working for fifty years (with time off or part-time employment for a few years when my children were infants to preschoolers).    For the past 26 years, I have been working in the Saskatchewan construction industry.   For the past 16 years, I have been working for my current boss.

The first fourteen years at KMB  were great.   I loved the work – it was challenging and rewarding.  I loved dealing with our clients, our suppliers and all of our professional support team.  I generally got along with most of the other staff – especially my boss.  We had some good years. 

We had a few less than great times – like when I was in the hospital for a month a few years ago.  I was on oxygen, morphine, multiple antibiotics and inhalants, had an ongoing iv and tubes draining my chest cavity in an attempt to allow my collapsed lung to expand.  My boss would call every few days to see if I knew when I would be back at work.   The day I got out of the hospital, he called to see if I would come to work the next day – which I did. 🙄

The past couple of years have not been great – or good.  Since the boss’s son joined the company there has been a total lack of respect, consideration or appreciation for myself or anyone on staff.   I still enjoyed working with the rest of the staff, etc but the atmosphere has been uncomfortable to say the least.

Last year, I did have the biggest sale of my career (and the biggest single sale for the company to date.) It was with our supplier that I have worked closest with over the past sixteen years and involved my favourite product.  The customer was a regular, who specifically wanted to work with me.   The order went virtually flawless start to finish – budget pricing to payment of invoice.    Best of all – the facility name for the project was St. Ann’s.  🤣🤣.  Every order is important when you are in sales, but it is definitely nice to end a career on a high note.

High notes or low, I am ready for the next chapter in my life.  I have always lived by the motto that you do not move forward looking in the rearview mirror.  There is so much ahead to look forward to!

My first major project will be getting our yard in order and repainting all of our steel planters.  My husband was out sourcing some paint for me this morning. I also want to start scheduling some r & r into my days.  I may check out my Kobo today and invest in a new book. 😊

Take care – have a great day!